Monday, January 30, 2012

Keeps me smiling

Neela never ceases to amaze me. To teach Neela about Martin Luther King Jr. on that special holiday we showed her a video from youtube with him giving a speech. As Tim was explaining this to her she noded her head and said, "Ok.... I have a dream." She said this phrase all by herself! I could not contain myself. They talked about Martin Luther King Jr. at school and she remembered. It was the cutest thing ever!

I know I say this about every stage, but this stage is so fun. So much personality, smiles, laughs, and questions. Love it!

She loves telling stories and she uses "adult" phrases like "because" (with a tilted head), "so", "like".

Pure joy.

Friday, January 13, 2012


There is something about a new year that is refreshing. I feeling of a fresh start, new goals, and the anticipation of what God reveals to me about who He is and continually changing my desires to His desires.

There is so much to be grateful for in my life. Confession: often I don't see my life this way. I often am distracted with being tired, not getting "me" time, or just the day having too many "interruptions".

I am praying for the Lord to open the eyes of my heart. I desire not to take the presence of the Lord in my life for granted. I desire to take complete joy in a husband who is my best friend and love, my daughter who bring so much laughter and smiles to my face and heart, my friends who bless me more than I deserve, and the blessing of living in America (enough said).

Transformation is what I long for. It's not always in a way I want it to come, but I know the Lord is faithful to guide my heart and mind to His truth of love, grace, and mercy.

Colossians 2:7
"rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness."

I pray my heart will rest in a God who has captpured my heart. Praying to know how much I need God and His guidance in my daily life. You Lord are enough.

Thursday, January 12, 2012


I've been reading through the book of James and as always god is stirring my heart ot know Him more, reveal sin in my heart, and repent of my selfish desires.

James 1:12,13 " 12 Speak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom, 13 because judgment without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful. Mercy triumphs over judgment." So often I think I don't judge others or think of myself better than others. The true state of my heart is I do. It's not an over arking loud judgement but quiet. Thoughts of "Did they really wear that?" "Did they just say that?" "Can't believe they struggle with that?" "Can't beleive that they do that in their marriage"... and so on. but of couse, that's me judging from my standard and what type of standard is that- a sinful, faultful standard. Thankful God is righteous and perfect. Gracious and merciful to his children. I am thankful the Lord is not letting me sit in sin and is bringing it to the surface. When this happens, I experience true freedom in Christ from guilt, shame, not meeting man's standard and approval.

Lord, continue to chisel away at my heart. Draw me to your love and truth that I may rejoice in your holy and precious name alone.